This pregnancy is so different from the 1st. I loved every second of my 9.5 month journey with Brooks. I was a lot more rested and focused on providing everything I possibly could for the little sprout beaming to life inside of me. This time - not exactly the way it is going. I am just so consumed by my life as a mother to Brooks, wife to Butch, and oh ya an individual with my own needs and wants to fulfill. I don't feel stressed about it though. I feel a lot more easy going and confident that he/she is so safe and thriving inside my womb. Our generation, with all the technological advances and information overload in general, has put a lot of pressure on pregnant mommies to live a near impossible perfect lifestyle full of toxin-free everything and enough nutrient dense supplements to make your poop shine! I know I am doing good, better than my mom and her mom did. The best part of pregnancy besides the hilarious uncontrollable flatulence and the emotional roller coaster that brings tears to my eyes every day, is thinking of the possibilities. I love to think of the future of our family and the 2 babies we are raising to become good humans and loving, caring citizens. But I hope more than anything that our babies see the true value in life is connections and family.
Growing up my brothers and I had everything we needed and wanted. We were provided for by our parents, relatives, friends and a tight community that truly watched after us. We were lucky. But more than that we had a good role model. My dad, in public service, taught us the joy of providing safety and protection to those who were not lucky enough to be born with the privilege. Often times my dad provided guidance and support to countless others absolutely selflessly. His actions have always inspired me to see past the "cover" so speak and figure out what's inside people. I believe that most people are good and most people just want to be loved.
The most important thing I want to provide as a mother is a feeling of love and confidence. I also want to do 1 thing different from my parents and have excellent communication. Love, confidence, communication and of course all the things they need to feel safe and live a healthy lifestyle and I will feel like I have done a good job raising my kids.
Here we are Brooks, 15 months old and Baby 2 still growing inside my womb, and I am setting goals for our lifetime together. It is my intention for these goals to grow as a part of me, but to always stay with me.
